Dear friends out there,
this long break wasn't planned and I didn't expect to need such a long time to get back on my feet again. I want to apologize to everyone who has been concerned and written to me, but not getting an answer. That was not kind of me.
I lost my voice and couldn't recover for many months. When I can't wrap my head around something, being not well, I retreat, hide away, in order to think and let things sink in.
That earthquake changed our lives.
And it ended so many people's life.
Other people lost their home, lost everything.
How can I speak to someone outside of Japan and explain what is happening here when it's even difficult for us to understand?
How to explain why we still would want to live here, while I wasn't really sure if that was in fact the case?!
Realizing what a stupid idea it was to use nuclear energy in the first place, not only on such an unsettled, fragile, little island like Japan but anywhere on earth made myself, at times, wish we would already have found that other planet to live on. Being here in Japan or in another country might not actually be that big of a difference.
Surely, I don't think those circa 250 km distance between here and Fukushima were a lot. Frankly spoken it appears to me I am having the atomic catastrophe right in my front yard - which is no thing everybody here would agree on. I might be one of those rather hysteric persons, taking the crisis that seriously.
But I don't want to go too far into that now... might risk the enterprise of getting back into blogging and sharing my crafts and snippets of life here in Japan with you.
Let me just say hello to you, I am back, hoping to be able to get in touch with you again.
A first knit I want to show you is that shawl I made in summer last year.
You can see, Japan was on my mind. Red. Round. And I was trying to gather all the good - strength, courage and myself, too. Hence the many, many gathered stitches... A bit tedious but also quite soothing.